It turns out she’s going to be fine, she has very low blood pressure and will be getting a pacemaker on Monday. It’s not great, but considering the options, it’s not so terrible either.
I am processing all of this, I am tired, distracted and a little bit cut off from my feelings because they go so deep. Something happening to my Mother is my greatest fear and this distance isn’t helping matters. Right now all I want to by lying at the foot of my Mother's bed, breathing in her essence.