That feeling of, not quite there... I'll be happy when... I'll do this, so that I get to do that, etc. I've been in that mode for the last 20 years, at least. I've been the horse following the carrot, and it hadn't occurred to me, until now, that you NEVER get the carrot, silly horse, never ever, that's not how it works.
What happens if I just say, "fuck it, fuck this dumb carrot, I'm not interested, carrots aren't always that good anyway, and there's delicious grass that I can eat right here!."
What if I truly decided to be happy with now? What if I knew, in my bones, that I wasn't missing anything, that there wasn't anything to wait for? What would that be like?
Let's see...
What happens if I just say, "fuck it, fuck this dumb carrot, I'm not interested, carrots aren't always that good anyway, and there's delicious grass that I can eat right here!."
What if I truly decided to be happy with now? What if I knew, in my bones, that I wasn't missing anything, that there wasn't anything to wait for? What would that be like?
Let's see...
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