Earlier this week, in the middle of an intense rehearsal fraught with drama, I got an email saying my Mother had fainted and was in the hospital. All at once everything else fell away, and these issues that I had thought were important ceased to matter in any way. So what, to all of it, I just want to be near my mother, and know that she’s ok. I feel so far away, and I hate this.
It turns out she’s going to be fine, she has very low blood pressure and will be getting a pacemaker on Monday. It’s not great, but considering the options, it’s not so terrible either.
I am processing all of this, I am tired, distracted and a little bit cut off from my feelings because they go so deep. Something happening to my Mother is my greatest fear and this distance isn’t helping matters. Right now all I want to by lying at the foot of my Mother's bed, breathing in her essence.
It turns out she’s going to be fine, she has very low blood pressure and will be getting a pacemaker on Monday. It’s not great, but considering the options, it’s not so terrible either.
I am processing all of this, I am tired, distracted and a little bit cut off from my feelings because they go so deep. Something happening to my Mother is my greatest fear and this distance isn’t helping matters. Right now all I want to by lying at the foot of my Mother's bed, breathing in her essence.
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