Ventilation

I often write about what upsets me, I find it helpful to put things on paper and get perspective. There have been many times when I have been hurt about this or that and l look back at my writing and I can’t remember what or who, I was talking about. I can go on for pages and pages about something that at the time was earth shattering and when I revisit it, I have no recollection.  That’s actually a very comforting thing, the knowledge that time and perspective are healing. There were many times when my diary was the only thing I confided in, and very often I didn’t even tell myself the truth. Over the years I've learned to be more honest with myself and writing is often the first step in that process.  

Because my writing is so often a tool for healing, sometimes I forget that it can be a way to celebrate what IS working, so today I want to honor that, and acknowledge that in every way that matters, my life is GREAT. My Mom is doing amazing, she's up and about, and will be coming out in a few weeks for the play! I have all of what I need and so much more, I am healthy and so are those I love, I am creating art, I am in a strong and loving relationship, I have incredible friends and a loving family. I am truly blessed and I never ever want to forget that.

I might go back to processing/venting/healing next week, depending on what comes up, but the magnificence of my life is what really matters, that is the foundation that gives all the smaller things voice, and allows for introspection.